God Is My Portion. My Spirit Will Not Be Oppressed!
I feel strength rising within me today! I feel God setting my spirit free from the oppression of my flesh. This is the message that the Lord has given to me:
God is truly good to Israel,
to those who have pure hearts.
But I had almost stopped believing;
I had almost lost my faith
because I was jealous of proud people.
I saw wicked people doing well.
They are not suffering;
they are healthy and strong.
They don’t have troubles like the rest of us;
they don’t have problems like other people.
So why have I kept my heart pure?
Why have I kept my hands from doing wrong?
I have suffered all day long;
I have been punished every morning.
God, if I had decided to talk like this,
I would have let your people down.
I tried to understand all this,
but it was too hard for me to see
until I went to the Temple of God.
Then I understood what will happen to them.Psalm 73: 1-5, 13-17 NCV
Then I realized that my heart was bitter,
and I was all torn up inside.
I was so foolish and ignorant—
I must have seemed like a senseless animal to you.
Yet I still belong to you;
you hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
leading me to a glorious destiny.Psalm 73: 22-24 NLT
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
For, behold, those who are far from You will perish;
You have destroyed all those who are unfaithful to You.
But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord GOD my refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works.Psalm 73: 25-26 NASB
It was not very long ago that I felt the way the author describes in the beginning of this Psalm. I kept crying out to God saying, “Why is life so hard for me?! Why is life so unfair?! I keep trying to do what is right, but nothing gets better!!”
I said, “God, I can’t live like this anymore!!” I had reached my breaking point, and I had nearly lost my faith.
However, as I come before Him in honesty and poured out my heart to Him in desperation, I began to see how I had let the world steal my joy from me. I had been foolish believing that this life was about me and my comfort. I had lost sight of God’s purpose and plan, but I still belonged to Him and He still held me in His hand, protecting and loving me despite my selfishness.
Our hope, our joy, our peace and contentment come from knowing and loving God and relying on His strength. In this world, we may always be oppressed, but they CANNOT oppress our spirit and soul!! As long as we make the choice to rely on God, we can have peace, joy and contentment no matter what our circumstances are!
God, I have realized that there is nothing here on earth for me. Nothing here will make me happy or content. God, I NEED YOU and ONLY YOU. I am happiest when I am telling everyone how good You are! Lord, continue to change my heart and root out my selfishness and pride! I don’t want to let You or Your people down. Strengthen and equip me to do what You have called me to do! You are my portion and I desire nothing else but You!!
